Officially a published blogger!

It’s pretty kickass. Starting work on the company’s blog is really exciting for me. So far I have gotten good feedback and it seems to really be the path I am taking in this job. I can’t believe this job just fell on my lap the way it did. I am thinking of taking some writing classes sometime down the road. First, I need to pay the school loans from when I went for counseling. 

So, living with my grandmother is getting rocky. She is losing her mind…. seriously. I didn’t know how much she is getting senile, but she is and I hate to say it. I already can’t wait to move and we are opening a savings account and looking to buy a place. But, she also isn’t well and I don’t know when I will be able to leave. Sometimes she hurts so much that I have to help her get off the couch or put clothes on. It’s stressful for the both of us, I know, but I think she needs someone there and no on else has stepped up. So, right now my living situation is up in the air. I hope, for the both of us that she gets better soon. God love her, but we are both very strong personalities and maybe a bit too much alike. 

We took Samuel to the doctor because he is still behind in a lot of areas and found out the he most likely has Autism. A less severe case (he is very lovable and loves to socialize-even if it’s mostly babbling), but we are going to have to enroll him in special needs classes very soon. Having a ‘special needs’ kid is just weird to think about. You never think you will have to deal with these type of things. But, the doctor is very hopeful and thinks that with help he will be in school with normal kids in time for kindergarten. 

So, learning to be a blogger for my job’s company, helping my grandmother full time, and trying to get my son some help is a lot on my plate, and, to be honest, I have been super stressed lately. But it’s not always so bad and I am VERY thankful for the opportunity to save up so we can buy our own place. 

Oh! I am officially down a size, too! Whoo-hoo!

Things have been kind of crazy on my end. I’ve been going through some things-nothing too sserious… well, I don’t know. Unfortunately, I am going to be very cloudy on the subject, but I chalk it up to being thrown into a high speed office job after being a stay at home mom for 3 years and a lazy college student before that and it has proven to be difficult in ways I totally didn’t see coming. Don’t get me wrong, though, I still love my job! And the people and pay are worth it.

My brother is moving back to Indiana sometime around June. I am so excited! I miss Dustin and his wife and kids so much. They are always a blast to be around and growing up we were (mostly) buddies.

Losing weight is slow going, but it’s going. And , that’s good enough. For now.

I found out recently that I am the weird girl who talks to herself at her desk. Lol, honestly, it’s embarrassing, and I try to stop when I notice I am doing it. God, I sound crazy, don’t I?

Brave is amazing. I usually like Disney, but damnit, that show is beautiful.

I love Wen hair conditoner, but if you leave it on your skin too long it gets itchy. I still use it because my hair is so amazing.

Also, considering trying the Body By Vi challenge. Though, I am still not convinced that it isn’t a scam. Plus, I’ve done the whole fad dieting thing…. I mean, it can get you there, but when you’re don’t you really have to try to stay there.

I am sorry for any spelling or grammar errors, I am lazy and posting from my phone makes me lazy.

Goodnight, Tumblr.

I got my smartphone turned back on. :)

I have missed this phone like crazy, and I have missed holding the internet in my hands with endless info and humor at my fingertips.

Last time, though, I got kind of addicted, and I would love nothing more than to blog my frakkin’ eyes out, but I have a full time job and well, I refuse to let blogging or this phone get in the way of my family.

Having this job has made it so I feel like I hardly ever see Sam or Evan. Especiallly Evan. He works evenings several days a week and usually works the weekends. So, when I get off work he is going in to work and doesn’t get off work until late and works from 1-10pm on the weekends. When I leave for work Sam is still sleeping and usually only get about 5 hours or so with him a day. For someone who was use to seeing their family all the time, it is quite the adjustment.

However, having money to spend on my family is a huge plus and sometimes Evan requests a Sat or Sun off and we all hang out and all is well again. :)

And, truthfully, I really like my job. I know I have only been there a month, but I already made some friends and I keep getting told that I am doing a good job. AND my boss ( not Shelly, who is my step mom and helped me get my foot in the door- one of her bosses) has started sending me the Facebook, Twitter, and blog post for their company for me to read through and give suggestions or additions.

To be honest, I’m not crazy about flags (lol, at all) and alot of my coworkers sit faaaaaarr from me on the political spectrum and I have already had to hold my tongue once or twice, but overall I like it. I am hoping to really go through with the internet/ social media thing (I don’t know how far that could go. And I don’t know how you can blog for 8 hours and make a full time career out of it, but here’s to hoping) and after awhile, what the hell, maybe take some writing classes when my kid(s) get older and easier to care for.

Yoga And An Update

I have started doing yoga, guys, and let me tell you, I love it. 

I don’t know how it’s helping me in the weight department, but my balance and posture is better. With my back (to those who don’t know, I have bars going down almost my entire back) I usually kept most of my weight on my right leg, and since starting yoga I can evenly distribute my weight on both legs. I have more stamina and and strength. 

I also just feel better overall. And I love doing it, I really do. 

My job is great. We still haven’t gotten me into the social media part, yet, but they are definitely working on it. So, I just take online orders and invoice them to the warehouse mostly, and I’m being trained to answer phones off and on. My bosses have told me that I am doing great and they so far I really like all of my co-workers. 

It doesn’t hurt that I knew 3 of them already and the head of my department is also my step-mother, but she has told me that her higher ups are very happy with me. My step mother loves me, but she doesn’t fuck around when it comes to her job. Before hiring me she told me straight up that she would fire me if I didn’t do the job, but I also knew that. She is a career woman through and through. 

In other, somewhat random, news, Mushroomhead is coming to town soon and I can’t afford to go. :( I would love to see them live. 

Anyone see any good concerts lately?

Hello, you guys.

I miss being able to blog so much. I’ll get internet eventually, swears.

Things are going well. I’m an aunt again! My brother-in-law (my husband’s brother) had a boy. He is just SO cute. And looks a bit like Sam did when he was born (except Sam was a total chunker). The moment I saw that little baby my heart just melted. So so cute. I love him so much already. Here is a picture. Or two.


Gosh, I just want to kiss that face!

Also, I’ve been writing a horror novel. I just hope I don’t finish it, decide it sucks, and then toss it. lol, oh well. 

I am SO excited about Christmas. Sam still doesn’t totally get it, but he is totally into it. We got our decorations up, and shopping for Sam is going to be so easy this year. We already got a few of his gifts. 

My jeep is broken. Again. I’m borrowing a family member’s car. Again. And, I HATE this car, but I really am so grateful for it. 

Losing weight is going bad. I’m going to be honest I haven’t done much to lose and the holiday season is getting to me in the food department. I’ve been trying to get into a walking regimen. I have a few times, but not enough to actually do any good. Hopefully my next update will have better results. 

Did I mention that I love my squishy little nephew? 

Here are some pictures of my cute little guy. Sam looks good in hats. 


I love you guys.

Things are all good here. 

Tags: love update

There is a street festival in town and I have no spending money!

Payday is today and I at least hope I can budget a few dollar so Sam can ride a ride or two.

Sorry, I haven’t been updating a lot lately. I’ve been hurting a lot this past week and really don’t have anything to update about.

But here is what my life is like right now:

My son’s terrible twos are in full swing. Time-outs are becoming commonplace in this house. And he screams, “NO, WAIT. NO! WAIT! WAAAAAHH!” This kid got my booming voice and I am sure my neighbors (maybe even the whole county) know when he’s in time out.

Sam has rediscovered his love for swimming. My brother’s kids are here from Missouri(sp?) for the summer and my dad put up his pool. Sam hasn’t got the whole “use your arms for swimming” but kicks his legs and slowly makes it to me with just floaties.

So, yeah, not much to update… I haven’t been able to work-out much the last couple of weeks because I have been hurting so bad that chores are all I can manage, and I don’t think I have lost or gained. Hopefully, I will be feeling better soon.


Have you ever…?

Sometime this week or next I was thinking about going on a 24hour water fast (consume nothing but water for a day). Has anyone else done this? When I was a Christian I fasted and it wasn’t easy, but I prayed at mealtimes and didn’t have a kid and wasn’t the mealmaker of the house.

I plan on meditating and praying during mealtimes if I can with this fast as well, but that’s only a bonus-this isn’t spiritual. I’m trying to flush my system.

I don’t yet know if I am even going to do it. I just would like a jump start on the weight loss. I know losing weight the right way is a slow process, but having fibromyalgia makes it had to do work outs on a regular basis and the bars in my back makes yoga out of the question. So, I thought a detox might be of some use. Idk.

Though, I have been doing more housework to burn more calories and have a cleaner and more organized home… kind of kills two birds with one stone.

I have had some chicken since my last update, but, I am thinking that cutting out poultry is going to be a lot harder than red meat.

I have no clue if I have lost more weight. My shorts that didn’t fit a month ago doesn’t seem to fit better than is did two weeks ago, but some of my tank tops seem to be looking better on me. I am still too scared to step on the scale… I have since before my miscarriage and probably won’t again until I am back down a size… which I am in limbo… the jeans I am wearing now getting too big and the ones I want to fit in are still a bit too snug. *le sigh* it’s totally lame.

Though, after I get to wear I’m aiming I plan on setting another goal, and then another, all the way until I am in the size I was when I got married. Evan and I both have pack on the lbs and we both are going to try to get back to our size we were when we got hitched. I don’t know how long it’s going to take, but I am excited for the both of us. :)

General Update

Sam went to the doctor today and they are going to refer him to First Steps to evaluate his hearing and speech delay. Other than that he is a very healthy and happy boy. Very tall. 99.93 percentile… wow. They didn’t seem too worried about his speech delay, but def agreed that it does need looked at.

Evan is being slowly moved to days and even though it’s 10 cents less per hour it will be better for us and for me.

I have been having trouble sleeping and drinking a lot of chamomille tea almost every night just to relax, but I get super sleepy during the day… totally lame. I have also been going through a flare-up and since drinking more water and less meat I do notice it’s a bit more manageable. Still hurts like. Hell, though.

I haven’t totally cut out poultry, but been buying cage free products and vegetarian fed hens.

I had meat today, but before that we all went several days without meat and I’m damn proud. I plan on eating no meat tomorrow.

I’m still losing weight. My jeans that were the only ones left that fit are def getting lose on me. I haven’t tried the other jeans yet because the button came off on one and the zipper is broke on the other one. Lovely, huh? Well, I guess I need to learn how to do alterations, because I can’t afford buying new clothes.

My boobs are still bigger, though. *le sigh* I am not as happy about this as Evan is. Lol

Oh! Pottermore is FINALLY out of beta and open to the public!!! Very excite!

Annnnnd… that’s been my life the past week or so. Sounds boring,I know, and it may be to some (and me sometimes, lol) ,but I love my life and the people in it. :)

An update on my little man.

This blog use to be pretty much about him. I have since moved away from that and made it a blog about be and my life.

I have been thinking about making another blog for my kid(s), but I just don’t think I would keep up with it.

Monday I am making an appointment for a check-up. We were denied Medicaid several times and finally got it a week ago. Luckily, he is a very healthy little boy and hasn’t really needed a doctor. But, I want his pedi to make an appointment to get his ears looked at and see a speech pathologist.
You see, he is speech delayed and the words he does use is very dutchy sounding. Sometiimes only Evan and I can understand him. A mojority of his cousins have had to have tubes put in their ears right around Sam’s age now. I wonder if his delay is due to a similar problem, but I don’t really know. He’s never had an ear infection-shoot, he’s never really gotten sick. He seems to only get sick when he teeths.

I (and my dad) didn’t even start talking until we were three, so, my family thinks his speech will come when he’s ready. And, they may be right, but it’s kind of disheartening to see kids his age speak full sentences, while he only says a few words.

All that being said; he’s a smart boy. He understands what I say, and points and drags me along to communicate. He loves bathtime and brushing his teeth. He knows what I am saying when I talk about it. I can ask him if he’s hungry or thirsty or if he wants to go upstairs or outside. He does things when I ask him to. So, we know he can, at least, hear enough to understand us.

He can say, hi, bye, drink, truck, big (a new one), love you, hot, no, and he can meow, bark, ribbit, and roar like a dragon. Lol.
He loves horses and babbles everytime he is near one.

Speaking of babble- don’t think he is quite… that is not true, he babbles all the time and he sings, too. So, I am not worried about autism or anything like that, but I am ready to get his speech delay addressed more aggresively, just to be sure.